My attention span is not good. And it seems to be getting worse. Staying focused on tasks during my professional and during my leisure times has been challenging lately. I’m not sure how to rectify this problem.

For a while, I had been using an app to list my daily tasks, but I’ve been neglecting that recently. I write down everything that I hope to accomplish during the next day. However, I often repeat items because I do not complete them.

I started reading a book earlier in the year about time management. It’s a pretty small book. I haven’t finished it. I’ve mentioned that before. The irony isn’t lost on me.

Sometimes I wonder if human brains are like computers that need to dump cache every once in a while. Do we hit capacity? Does it become more difficult to maintain focus or remember things as we get older, just naturally?

When I was attending elementary and high school in the 1980s and 1990s, I was called lazy and unfocused. If I were in school today, I would likely be diagnosed with a form of attention deficit disorder and I would be treated for it.

I’ve recently attempted mindful practices including some meditation, but during those sessions, my brain won’t shut up. The lessons being taught to me are often lost. I used to do workout sessions that lasted anywhere from 45 minutes to 2 hours. I’m lucky if I can focus enough for 30 minutes now. Although, 22ish minutes often seems ideal. I would blame my cell phone and the Internet for all of my distractions, but I don’t play with my phone during workouts or mindfulness.

If I’m watching a movie, I turn my phone off and for the most part, I’m fully engaged. But, at the same point, I don’t remember much of it when I’m watching sequels. I’m currently re-watching a TV show that I watched when it was first one about a decade ago. Other than one scene that I’ve re-played countless times on YouTube, I barely remember the show.

My current task at hand is this blog entry. I’m somewhat focused on it and I’m doing my best to not get distracted.

In these entries, I’ve often talked about how everything starts over at the beginning of the month. I could tell you how seriously I’m taking it with the start of a new month tomorrow, but why would you believe me if I keep having the same issues? Well, the way that I’m looking at it now is how I’m about repeat a few things that happened a few years ago and good results came from them. I’m hoping to see the same results. Of course, results don’t happen if one doesn’t do the work. And all know that the work is SO important.

Various things in my life need to improve. It’s my hope that if I get one thing going, the rest will get easier. I don’t expect everything to just fall into place, but with some improvement, I’m hoping that the path to self-improvement will become easier. I have somewhat of a plan. I should be able to….

Oh look, a shiny object…