Well, I went to the doctor, I said, “I’m feeling kinda rough…”

I try my best to be serious about my health. I make sure do have my annual physical. I don’t just do this because it’s what I should do. I do it because I’ve seen what happens when you don’t do it. Over the past few years, I have learned something important about myself. It takes a little more effort to stay healthy.

I’m (rapidly) approaching 50 years of age. I’ve experienced a slowing down of my metabolism. The amount of effort that it used to take to lose 10 pounds isn’t enough anymore. I ache in places that I didn’t use to ache.

I don’t want to be someone that relies on too many pills to regulate things in my body. I want to avoid that for as long as I can. And, so far, I’m basically okay there.

This year’s physical was just about two weeks ago. As a result of some questions that I had an how the results of my tests came back, I’ve already seen some more doctors, and I have more appointments on the way. So far, it looks like everything that’s wrong with me is a result of being overweight. I had put in a plan in place to tackle that even before I had the physical.

I’ve made some changes to my diet. I’m eating better again. I’m eating slower. I’m drinking more water. I’ve (mostly) cut out sugar. I’m paying attention to my calorie count. I’ve started exercising regularly again and I’m following a plan that I’ve come up to get myself back into shape for some 5k races later in the year. By no means is it an elaborate plan, but there’s enough of a plan.

My physical health is not the only thing that I’ve been put a concentrated effort into working on in 2026. I’ve also put a much greater focus on my mental health. I’ve found using a particular app a few times per day has kept me very grounded with my mental health. I’m trying my best to practice mindfulness and to just continue with the gratitude for all that I have.

My physical health and my mental health are not things that I take for granted. Both require consistent effort to remain in good shape. I’m doing the work.

The year is only one month old, but I think I’m on the right track. I’m genuinely optimistic about my health.

I’m not ashamed of getting help with my health. I have sleep apnea. I treat that with a CPAP machine. It’s greatly increased my sleep. I have depression and anxiety issues. I treat that with therapy. I’m overweight. I’ve begun seeing a nutritionist/dietitian for that.

Health insurance companies truly do want you to be healthy. Sure, it’s mostly due to them not wanting to pay out on services, but that’s almost not the point. If you go to your provider’s website, you’ll find so many tools and services that are designed to keep you healthy. I’ve earned cash rewards from my provider this year due completing various activities. All that you need to do is look at the website and I’m sure you’ll find rewards programs and discounts on health related things. I’m glad that I did.

I used to be angry, resentful, cynical, and bitter. I think it’s fair to say that I’m (almost) optimistic about things now. I have a lot of gratitude and I’m basically in a much better place. I included the “almost” there because it’s impossible to be completely optimistic about life when you see what’s happening in the world right now. But, I know that eventually things will turn around. It may get (a lot) worse before it gets better, but it will get better.

A joke that I’ve made about my health recently is that I’ve told people that I defer to a song by Warren Zevon (which you can listen to here and this blog’s title references) to describe my health. I don’t think that I’m quite as bad as the song describes, but I understand the sentiment of the song. Being healthy requires effort. It doesn’t just happen. I’m doing the work and I’m pretty confident that I’m going to see good results when I get my next round of tests.

Mend Your Ways Before They Tear You By the Seams.

I’m on a self-improvement journey. That’s what I’ve been telling myself and my readers for a while. It wasn’t until somewhat recently that I’ve really started to believe it for myself. I’m making progress. I’ve been told about it. And like I just said, I’m starting to believe it.

So many bad habits, behaviors, thoughts, and feelings were programmed into me for years. Parents, teachers, classmates, society in general. I have so many sources for it. To be completely clear, I’m not blaming anyone. I’m stating how I see it and I’m trying to fix things for myself.

During this past August, I was incredibly disciplined with my workouts and my mindfulness. I was working towards a specific goal. I wanted to be ready for a 5k that I was going to run at the end of the month. Once that passed, the workouts went by the wayside again. Other good practices that I truly enjoyed during the month also fell apart. I’ve joked (too often) that the start of a new month means that I can start again. Well, I’m planning to do that again with the new month that starts tomorrow.

I felt good about myself during August. I was putting in the important work and I truly felt the difference. Now, at the end of September, I don’t feel as good about myself. I don’t feel bad about myself. Just not as good. While, I’ve slacked with certain things, I also think that I improved some other areas of my life too.

I’ve often spoken of my need for balance. I don’t think I want balance right now. I don’t want to give up on some things while improving others. I want to improve all of them. I guess balance could still be a part of that. However, I may need to adjust the scales of my life a bit. Of course, while I adjust those scales, I really want to decrease the number on the scales that weigh me, but that’s part of my self-improvement journey.

I have a good support system. I have resources at my disposal. I need to use these resources. If they’re apps or books, I need to take advantage of their lessons. If they’re friends, I need to reach out and hear their words. Not just listen to them, but hear them. But, they also need to listen to me. You cannot help me if you don’t where I’m coming from. You cannot help me if you don’t know why I think the way I think. You cannot help me if you do not understand me.

Digging deeper into that last paragraph. I’ve begun to listen to others more closely. I’ve made it a point to hear their words. It’s just another aspect that I’m trying to improve.

I need to escape the behaviors, patterns, and thoughts that bring me down. I need to be better. I need to do the work to get there. And, I think I’m on the right track. Every so often, my mind tries to tell me that I’m not doing it, but I try to ignore it.

I’ve been told that I often look back too much. I don’t know if that’s completely true. Even if I do look back often, I think it’s necessary. You cannot get to where to you want to be if you don’t know where you’ve been. My past (good and bad) has brought me to where I am today. Only through understanding where I’ve been can I get to where I want to be.

So, where am I going? I’m not totally sure. But, I know that I’m heading forward. I also know that I like where I am. Where I am is good.