Between MySpace and this site, I’ve been writing blog entries pretty consistently for over 20 years. One of the things that I’ve noticed is that I often have a writer’s block issue happening during the month of May. This year is no different. I really don’t know what to talk about without being overly repetitive.

To be fair, I’ve had difficulty writing these for a while. It’s not because I have issues that I’m afraid to talk about or that I’m scared to address things. It’s that I’m doing well. And, at least for me, doing well hinders my creativity. What a problem to have? I’m not depressed enough to write about things. Is it weird that I’m almost bothered by that?

I’m really in a good place, mentally. Things are far from perfect and I still things that stress me out on a daily basis. I also have some very big things to deal with. And, on top of all of that, I have things that cause me a lot of stress and anxiety. But, I’m able to deal with them a lot better than I used to. I’m on top of things with my health. I’m doing the work.

There’s various tools that I use on a daily basis to enhance my calm. As weird as it sounds, one of them is a TV channel called ZenLife. I often put it on while I’m sitting around or when I need just something calming the background. The yoga and exercise apps that I use have increased my calm. And another thing that I use daily to increase my calm is an app that’s appropriately called Calm.

I’ve come a long way in my mental health journey over the years. I may have found the balance that I’ve been searching for between the ying and the yang of my life. I’ve become, dare I say, optimistic. I know, I know… it’s hard to believe, especially if you’ve known me for a long time.

As a big milestone birthday is approaching (very rapidly), I’ve FINALLY started to believe that I belong. Belonging has often been a big issue for me. I’ve written about this before, in particular in this entry from August 27, 2014. The truth is that not much has changed for me between August of 2014 and now as far as my social life goes. I’m in pretty much the same circles that I was in then. I still basically do the same things that I did then. I see pretty much the same people. But, my mindset has changed about socializing and the “scenes” that I’m in. I appreciate it all so much now. I think that I did then, but it’s different.

I often look back to another entry. This one from just about two years ago. I included some philosophical quotes in there that have really gotten me through a lot of things. The “I woke up today” one is a big one. As simple as it is, I look forward to getting up and doing things every day. I look forward to the next day. I’m grateful for tomorrow.

As I stated at the beginning of this entry, I don’t really have a lot to talk about here right now. I think it’s possible that I may change things up in future entries. Maybe they’ll be less personal and more about specific topics that interest me. I’ve dabbled in that before, but I may challenge myself to write better pieces about my interests. I know that my next entry will be another personal one, and a bit reflective. But, getting back to what I said towards the beginning of this entry, I don’t have too much to say. I’m not currently at odds with the world and I’m pretty comfortable. So, for the sake of continuity, I’ll use another philosophical quote that pretty much sums up my current situation, but sort of in reverse. The quote is from Simon Pegg, “We are never more creative than when we are at odds with the world and there is nothing so artistically destructive as comfort. Princess Leia taught me that.”